Illusions of Joy

Illusory happiness beckons
Should I lay down my defenses
And this stupid heart reckons
It wants to see through rose tinted lenses
Deaf to the voice of reason
And blind to history’s lessons
Forgiving heart’s past treason
I build a castle with time’s sands
Another dream for the guillotine
Another scar to carry for life
Everything that I’ve already seen
In every shade of strife
Yet I make myself believe
A lie tailored for me
Where she never leaves
And every song’s sung for she
In the corner of my mind
I can see through the veneer
But for just once more I’m kind
And keep it from my heart’s ear
 – Raziel ©2014


In a box I live
Trapped by me
Hoping one day
To be let free

It’s dark inside
Dark all around
Its dark inside me
I’m gagged and bound

I’m screaming
So loud…
But you can’t hear
There is no sound

I’m cold and bloody
I’ve fought my chains
I’ve failed…
No one else pains

No one looks at me
For me, to me
I’m just a spectacle
Then a speck, then gone

Sometimes people come
Save me from me
They leave
And I’m colder inside

I hurt, I don’t
I’m stone, I’m flesh
Is who I want to forget

Pain is life
And life is pain
Those who live
Are all insane

– Raziel (c) 2014