Memory

If memory serves right, I’ll hate for all time
If memory serves right, I’ll have misery for life
If memory serves right, I’ll hurt every moment
If memory serves right, I’ll be trapped by the past

As infinite moments clamour for attention,
Why do I stay ensnared by this one?
Is it choice, or insanity,
Is it penance, or depravity?

On the shores of time’s infinite,
Where others stand in awe,
I kneel in humble obeisance,
And let my memory gnaw…

– Raziel ©2017

via Daily Prompt: Infinite

Yesterdays once more

Yesterday was made of dreams
The kind that through darkness gleams
We spent it in abandon, so utopic
In silence, conversation, and hysteric
Like this was what it had all been for
Why we cried, hurt, bled, and more
We were unbelieving that tomorrow will come
Like disbelief would stop its run
So naive, we thought this moment won’t end
Like some holy hand had this blessing sent
We laughed, we spoke, of things from yore
And the night became etched in lore
But happiness, like it’s wont to do
Shrunk the days into hours into memories few
We all got up to go our separate ways
Subdued goodbyes and promises made
To meet again plans are hatched
Assurances are with sureties matched
Like tomorrow wouldn’t be the end of days
Like our eyes were meant to see a hundred Mays
The same scene from years ago
Yet once again it’s hope we sow

 – Raziel ©2017

Surrender

As night descends
So does sadness
Like ritual to divine
From weary feet
To lumpy throat
The effect ascending like wine

What day holds together
Night rips apart
Each unyoked emotion
Exhibiting its art

A Promethean sentence
To memories resurrect
Account each failure
Each torment reflect

Tears well
As the last ramparts fall
White flags raised
The mind surrenders it all

 – Raziel ©2016

Jaded

Talk to me I’m bored
Bored of this day to day
Bored of the things I must say
This mustn’t be life
It’s nothing like people say
Where is the love, the adventure,
Where is the misery, the elation,
Where are the ups and downs
The included smiles and frowns
Or have I turned numb?
Is it that the world has colours
But that my eyes see grey?
Is it that there is laughter
But that my ears can’t hear?
Is there both sorrow and joy
But that my heart won’t feel?
Is it that life isn’t so jaded
Just how it has turned me…?

 – Raziel ©2016

Carpe diem

In the end the reaper takes us all,
Sometimes in spring, sometimes the fall,
Then why should I cower in fear?
My hour might be far or almost here
I don’t have time to sit by idly
While the clock hands count down slowly
There is too much to do, too much to see
Life is ill spent languidly
So do it all, do it now
Future is what the present allows

– Raziel ©2016

No Facade

At the end of the day, as I stare into space,
I finally let down my guard,
Bring down the walls, naked I stand,
No facades

It is only me,
And the void that reaches out,
It consumes me and in return I , it
No facades

Till the night allows, we stay as one
Sorrow, and misery, and tears, and the dark
Till the first bird song, till first light
No facades…

– Raziel ©2016

via Daily Prompt: Facade

A Funeral

Many came,
Many more sent condolences,
“He’d have been happy”, they said,
And consoled themselves

Many spoke in platitudes,
Many more rationalized,
“At least the suffering ended”, they said,
And consoled themselves

Sons and daughters,
Their children and friends,
Brothers and sisters,
Their families as well
If not for a funeral,
A celebration it’d have been,
Then again, perhaps it was,
Of his life’s work and kin

  – Raziel ©2016

Dilemma

The heart pulls me to the sea,
To the open, the vast, the free,
Tells me to reach out and grab this opportunity
To leave behind the shadows,
To be selfish and impulsive

But…
I can’t move,
In a million questions I tie myself
What is it that I fear?
What could be more clear?
My wish has been granted,
Isn’t this what I wanted?

But no,
I can’t shake this shadow,
It has me,
It has me,
Deep within its maze of darkness,
Where the loudest scream comes out as silence,
I fidget with the key to my cage,
Too afraid to find out,
What new horror might befall,
Should I ever try to step out

 

– ©Raziel 2016
Via: Dilemma

Moon

In abandon, gay
And mirthful glee
From worries and bothers, free
Living life
As pleased me
I spent the sun thoughtlessly
With nary a shade of doubtful seed
Not even a sprig of fearful weed

But the day always ends dark
And the Sun yields its lofty mark
The dark is the Moon’s to rule
When doubt and fear creep in to roost
Beguiled by its radiant charm
I have dreamt an impossibility
And when the dawn came again
The Moon had the last laugh
For the dream became my prison
Doubt and fear its sentries

– Raziel ©2016

Response to Daily Prompt – Moon

The longest second…

Time never changed its pace,
Neither slowed nor sped for them
But what was but a second, a second ago
Was now so much more than then

The sun still rose in brilliant hue
But the eyes perceived only grey
The heart still beat within them
Yet, somehow life had lost its way

Some lay shattered in pieces
While others gathered themselves
But no one was whole again for sure
Some unlike, some a shade, of olden selves

They reminisced happy memories,
And how they thought they still had time
But they’d waited just a second too long
And now that second was time

– Raziel ©2016